And why would coffee be a missionary elixir for me? Because I have to rise at the crack of dawn, and I am not a morning person. Some teams that leave have to meet at 4 am to catch their flight. Last weekend with the family mission team, I got up by 6 am to get breakfast started.
I am not happy.
Probably shouldn’t talk to me. It’s not you…it’s me. Don’t take it personal.
If I appear to be happy or smiling, or awake…I’m faking it. And I can fake it well, it just takes a lot of energy and the missionary elixir from above.
I am not an early riser. I don’t know why. Some think it is because of how late I stay up, but while it probably does have an affect…even if I go to bed early, I’m still not happy to get up before 9 am. And spare me the ‘well when you have kids’ speech. I don’t, and none in the foreseeable future.
You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. [Psalm 139:1-3]
God knows me. He created me, and he used Psalm 139 to remind me of that many years ago. I’m pretty sure he’s ok with me being grumpy in the morning as long as my Kingdom work gets rolling at some point in the day. After all, it’s usually my joy that makes my Creator attractive to others…and that definitely does not come in the early morning hours.
The sun still rises with or without me…I just like the moonrise a bit more. There are others out there, don’t be scared to admit it. Admittance is the first step…