Water swirls around me as I catch a breath then tuck my head back into the blissful quiet of the pool.
Stroke. Kick. Stroke. Kick. Breathe. Stroke. Kick. Stroke. Kick.
When I am swimming it is one of the most peaceful times for me to decompress and clear my head. Second only to hanging out in God’s glorious nature. I may be outgoing, but God doesn’t speak through my outgoing moments. His presence is felt and he speaks through the times I am alone. Quiet. Dreams. Rest. I have to be disciplined to grab onto those moments, or suffer the separation from my Savior. Not good for me…ever.
This morning I woke up with a random song in my head, and while I was swimming the chorus was on a loop…breathing in and out of my soul as I was catching breathes between strokes.
Sometimes I need something to run like a mantra through my head for it to truly sink in.
I am set free. It is for freedom that I am set free.
I actually couldn’t remember the rest of the lyrics. But this mantra of my freedom associated with ‘it is for freedom I am set free’ was continuous.
As I mulled it over, losing track of laps…freedom to bring others freedom or freedom for me to rest in after being set free.
When we got back from the pool (and after the Duke game…priorities…) I hit the iPod.
You mend my life with your holy fire. You cover me with grace.
It takes time alone with God for me to feel that mending with his Holy fire. And oh how it can be a raging Holy fire at times…
What this freedom, and mending, means for me is to be free of the shackles of the expectations of others.
Freedom is not suffocating in the sin my Savior willingly takes from me.
Free of the chains holding me to a person I am not.
Freedom to proclaim what I am called to and what I am not called to, and being set free to be that person.
Freedom to bask in the Holy Spirit fire that guides me, restores me and draws me to the heart of God.
Freedom to grasp with my last dying grip to the peace that Jesus freely gave in John 14:27.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
It is being alone with God where I feel the most clarity in my spirit, his peace and where I see most clearly my past, future and the now. Free of distraction, and my mind empty for God to fill…a woman in process and mended by his Holy fire.
(Lyrics from ‘I am set free’ by All Sons and Daughters)